Desperately searching for a tissue I found just one black napkin. I recently had what was probably the deepest conversation ever in my entire life. My children just celebrated their birthdays, my son 4, my daughter 2. My dad, their grandpa, completely forgot. No call, no text, no card, nothing. After 2 weeks of being filled with feelings I wanted to shake and get rid of so badly, and still no word from him, the answer came to me. While I was driving home from work the other night, I listened to a podcast by Hal Elrod. It was all about letting go of negativity and judgment. While listening I decided that with this situation and with all situations in my life moving forward I will let go and said goodbye to negativity and judgment. I sent my dad a message leaving him with a choice to either be consistently present in their lives or not be at all. During our conversation there was no yelling, no arguing, just tears. He didn’t give me a definitive answer and confessed he wasn’t even sure he knew how to be a grandpa or if he was cut out for it. After having this conversation I left with the weight lifted off my shoulders and peace in my heart because I left better not bitter. Life is happier lived when you exit off Negative Judgement Street, notice the sun shining on your one black napkin and love unconditionally.
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